i loved the movie 'juno'. you should see it, although if you haven't by now something must be wrong with you. haha. i identified with that movie in a lot more ways then i thought i would. it was really strange.

maybe this film got me thinking about pregnancy and babies. suddenly pregnancy and young mothers have been popping in the media lately in my eyes. i randomly ended up at a park in irvine on a swing when a family came over to celebrate a girls first birthday. so there is the 1 year old girl on the swing beside me. i felt a few things. like how i shouldn't lose my child innocence. second, i'm growing up. third, i want a baby of my own one day.

this weird feeling of wanting a baby is quite random. but to think about it, i've always known i wanted children and always knew that one day i will become a mother. don't worry, i can insure you that my plans do not include a baby for the next few years. and it just makes me think how we continue to grow and change identities. i'm going through the crazy soul and career searching fight for independence early 20s phase.
who knows what is ahead of me? i can't plan everything.