trying to live in the present and also focus on the future. we had an internship fair this week and i surprisingly enjoyed it. i usually hate those networking type events. it's draining for me. but i realized that people in my field are usually good, friendly people.
i'm not really a planner and like to take things as they come or i dwell on the past. i'm really trying to not dwell on the past. i have a tendency to focus on the past where it is hard for me to focus on my current situation. but i really want to be living in seattle, physically and mentally. i don't want to be distracted by things back home. i want to experience living here and give this place a shot.

i think i complain about seattle but isn't that normal the first six months of living in a new place? i'm learning to adapt and get used to all that i don't have or what's different. my struggle at the current moment is the lack of men in my life right now. just having male friends or somethin'

okay, i'm exhausted. tired of reflecting. tired of thinking about my life and writing papers. i need to rest. laters!