my life feels cloudy and disorganized right now. my fortune cookie told me today, "you're judgment might be off." that's not a fortune. but it turned out right. i was working til almost 9pm today not answering my phone. i missed the phone calls of my family to tell me that my grandfather is in the hospital and is having serious problems with his kidney. and then i get some smug comment my dad saying how i don't care about this family.
hmmhmmhmm... so i have been on the edge and stress with my family. but doesn't that happen with everyone? and what is with guilt or feeling obligated?
i feel the push and pull all the time. do i try to be a good daughter/sister or just try to listen to myself and do my own thing?
does it have to be something horrible to happen to make u see the light? to appreciate?