opening up is one of the hardest things to do. sure, i like to have a lot of friends but those that i share my core, really trust, are a very selected few, and even those don't know lots about me.

and from old blogs, i have brought up the issue of my shyness and my keeping things in. but on the other hand, i am very expressive and love to talk to friends for hours about feelings and such.

what about confrontation? i hate it. i avoid it all costs. being confronted yesterday caught me off guard. i couldn't run away from it. i had to take it in. take in the constructive criticism. think of new ways to improve myself.
and all i want to do is runaway. and i can't. it's time to face my fears. go forward. take more initiative.